Loving you was never wrong ,

exams are like finally over and yeah,
hope that I'll not retain (:
I really did work hard this time round kk.
Had not been going out for the past weeks cause,
Eileen and I are busy mugging for exams.



Until now,like finally only we are able to go out (:
Tdy is like a Monday holiday,
Met Meimei & Eileen at bugis bought my high waist skirt,
shoes and then Eileen got her high heels. HAHA
EXPENSIVE luh her heels,insane man.
She bought it still (:
Its nice luh swear man.



After that went sengkang compass point,ate Mos.
Then to Hougang shop shop and finally took bus 27,
bussed down to Changi Airport. HAHA
So many Angmoh hot guys luh , we were like just laughing like crazy.
OMG. Cutexzx man.
After that we all bussed home at 7.30pm (:



Havina a date with Meimei on Friday to do our hair,
she cutting and Im rebonding (:
Cant wait for that day, cool man,



The love you want is too perfect , I'll never get to learnt it .,

You haven been talking to me alr,
for so freaking long,
I cant believe you can really forget me,
in such a short period of time.
Times is really hard for me now,
tell me,
what should I do.
I just cant forget you ,
it has been 4 long months,
we've been through it.
Its not easy to let go now.
I just cant.

Not talking to you for about a month soon,
its really difficult for me. IDK why.
Just about what I had known,just wanna tell you,
YOUR THE BEST I EVER HAD.
I want you to know this,not because of motives but,
its a fact.
If I had known you earlier or longer,or maybe even better,
I could have the smallest chance to to the best I could.



If you ever had a chance to get to see this post,
Ill be happy.
Just wanna let you know,maybe we ended up like this,
its because of problems that we never solved and,
its all my fault.
Im sorry for hurting you for what I've done.



Alrights, ____ have not been talking to me for a long time.
Im being sad ):
haha,
and Eileen,cheer up kay. Dont because of that we saw HER at tiong,
make you so moody luh kay.
At least you let yourself earned some POSITIVE points right?!
haha ><
Cheer up Darling! 

Well,Im really tired.
Knowing all things about you makes me happy yet sad too.
Im really hoping one day to be able to see you again ):
idk why.
Juat addicted you know.
Im like,really on the verge of giving up alr.
I wanna try my best but no chance was given.
Ppl tell me not to give up easily but guess what,
not even texting you,chatting with you on phone and even worse,
not able to meet up,and see you.
Thats really bad.
If I was to give up,all these will be my reasons.
If im not,idk what would be my reasons then.
But I only know,



IM REALLY ADDICTED TO YOU.

You had already sealed the fate between us.
Nothing will turn back nor a miracle will happen,
even if I had tried my best or i wanted to.
You didnt give me a chance to try my best and,
never give me a chance for me to prove myself at all.
Now everything is gone, including our friendship?
I guess your avoiding me now, all I can say is ,
Im sorry for interrupting into your friend's as well as your life.
I know I shouldnt.
But Im seriously addicted.
This will be my last stop,its gonna take a long time for me,
to stand back up again to how i am before.
Ill remember you, etched deeply in my heart.
Trust me.

Well I guess Im really attracted to you.
Getting to know you is the best thing I've ever received.
When I first saw you,my heart was pumping fast.
Among all,I was attracted to you only. 
I love talking to you,I really enjoyed it.
When Im not able to see you,I was hoping to meet you.
I think of you most of the times.
You do not have to like me or what,
being able to make friends with you,
Im alr happy enough.

xoxo,

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Its been a four days since you had talk to me.
Are you really angry with me?
I really miss you alot ):
Its been one month long ever since I seen you.
How I wish I could see you again,even if its a last chance,
Could you just let me see you for the one last time?
It is really killing me by missing and thinking you everyday,Im turning insane.
I missed the memories we had together and the times we spent.
  

 

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well,ill have to accept that i did wrong , ill have to accept it.
all i can say is IM SORRY.
if you wanna say im despo,well okay,i wont talk about guys then . in case im being a despo again. -,-

National day was fun,had a fun day with Eileen,went to meet some friends and yeah , saw fireworks:D damn nicee..

and my dear friend Trevor was bad love bullying me. haha. but nice friend. :D
talked to them at night is fun,thanks.
welll things happened recently,and so Mr Ng said im stubborn oh well maybe i am but yeah fine,nothing to say,maybe i am.

And well,my teachers told me, this might be the best time to see Friends are true not well,ill listen to them and move on with my life. :D thanks especially MS Chin and Ms Laura Lim , thanks for the encouragement . (: Ill pay attention in class one ! (:


And so, Ill have to thank my best friends for being there for me when i needed your especially today. Though i know i really cried badly , hah, as i cant control my emotions, sorry.
really thanks alot, LOVE YOUR TO THE MAX :D


Eileen Ang,
thanks for helping me and being there for me when im down.


Ethel Tan,
thanks Ethel for comforting me today, love you to the max :D


Brenda Fong,
thanks little FROG haha! didnt know you so nice will comfort me one leh , still know how to give me tissue!
haha , thanks : love you many. (:

Vivian & MeiMei\
thanks for comforting me leh :D your are so nice . love your too kay :D
 

WeiQi
weiqi,hahah love writing 'NOTEBOOK' with you you know! haha
thanks you know for being there for me , love you alrights.
 

 thanks love your to the max :D
 

26 July 2009
alrights , haven been posting for a few weeks alr. or one month?
Who gives a damn anyway.
kay , things had been happening in school this week. especially to me dunno why, maybe just unlucky to be the one luh.
I dunno what happen , people had been saying stories to thier friends that i bitch about them. but , my consience is clear,I did nothing wrong , so yeah no matter how they treat me, idc luh. cant defend myself at all. But thanks Babylove, you knew what happened. thanks for being able to understand me :) . Same to Eileen, thanks for being there for me when i had known what happened. Love your two loads . 
:D 


27 July 2009
Went to baby's house on Monday,till 6pm. His dog is really dammit cutee! omg,
Love his dog to the maxxx kayy!!   WANNA see his dog again when I have the chance. (:
its really cuteee i swear! Baby was bad, didnt wanna let me do my homework ): keep disturbing me and bullying me.
So mean luh, walao. yeah! somemore love to walao so much !! haha..
Hope he doesnt see this post!! 
Love you many,
xoxo.



28 July 2009
School as usual, borring . sian luh , -,-.
Went for F&N after school,okayokay,still can do.
at least I managed to pass . (:
Went tiong after that,ate desserts at Kopitiam,waited for G to return Eileen some things and then we left for chinatown.
Changed busses and homed.
Reached home did my homework,texted with Mingjian.
Sort of miss himm, haha. and I told my mum,he pierced his septum,and ask her if i could bring him home to let her see, but she say no!!
I was like , huh okay lorr. cause my mum dont like ppl with piercings.
): nevermind, ill start brainwashing her from today onwards. haha :D



29 July 2009
Well well , school was quite alrights today. Had F&N lessons .
it was fun but i sit right infront . so annoying uh! haha. but love Ms Chin's lessons. (:
and then Eileen told me this shocking news about G and D. I was like OMG!!!
Dammit shocked,could only tell you the hint is BEE HOON :D
hahah!!
After school,went to Art room to take my chinese test. okay luh, quite easy? 
:D took half an hour to do , then after that i cabbed home. cause was so soo soo tired.
Alrights will post other days. My brain is dying soon, I needa sleep.
Byeee.

 

Alrights, School was quite fun today.
Met him at 6.30 today,chatted . And we took the same bus. (: Well, I guess thats alr enough for me to be happy!
hahah. Texted with Gerald, a new friend I just made. lol -,-
After school, went tiiong market to eat,then bussed to tiond.
Eileen bought fish porridge for a friend that she cares the most. went to his house,passed him, Phebe and me pro kay, pushed her in to hanky panky whereaas we both went to the void deck to camwhore while waiting for her.
And we were damn fuckingg high kay!!
hahah!
 We kept laughing and laughing at our own jokes. :D
Love your two to the MAX!



pickturees, taken while waiting for Eileen :D



taken on the way walking back to my house :D

hahah!
now i am like at home enjoying my ICE CREAM, be jealous allrights. :D




Cute nott! hahah
At home so boring so camwhore lorr :D

Bet Isaac is seeing my LJ now. IDC. I am going to badmouth him.
likes to bully me on msn.
So UNGENTLEMAN.
Not going to talk to him anymore . ): Im saddddd.

I think I turned ugly alot leh, howw.
Sian luh, Walao!!
Hate Isaac.
hahah!!! :D

Thats all,
Baby I love you.

I totally lost all my directions which path should i take.
IDK.
My mind is in a whirl now.
Please tell me, what should I do.

 well today school was boring.
After school accompany Lover to go take her IC pickturee and then went Kopitiam to eat.
Bussed to Chinatown point,slackedd and ten went Macs to eat ice cream-,-
Whereas Someone called phebe,though im not happy but I cant do anything.
Whats done cannot ba undone i guess.
Think I'll had to survive with this for the time being.
 

And I dont think I'll be able to change my character so fast overnight. Maybe I dont have the chance to deserve you then,
Just to tell you I'm sorry about all the things I had done.
On the day I'm cold towards you, I guess im not in a good mood?
I think all I can say now to you is Im Sorry.

Gonna have a nice rest later on i guess.
I am really tired,my eyes are feeling heavy but yet it just wont close.
And my mind just flashing back the things i dont wanna think .
tears were just hard to roll down my eyes.

Weel,maybe this is just the ending of the story.

How I wish I had a shoulder to lie on,a person to be there for me whenever I needs him.

Alright,slept at 3am ytd , woke up at 3pm today. :D hahah. Full energy.
Bathed and went out with Sis to Far East,bought dresses, shoes, tops and shorts. haha (:
After that went Bugis, bought a clutch wallet and some glossy leggings and shirts
and i bought a Dickies bag in town!
hahah!!
Reached home at 1130 after my dinner.
Tiring day today. Sleeping liaos.
Goodnights!

Baby, I still love you the most.

these pictures are taken after scool and when I went out hahah
had a fun day!




Picturess toook:D

Alrights,today met Phebe at 1.15pm at outram MRT station.
Went Bugis and something happened. WTF. Who gives a damn now.
Went arcade,playedd. Around 3,bussed to Tiong to meet Glenn and Junkiet.
Went arcade again. Around 4, went Plaza Sing with them. 

Went Parklane to pooled,.while Glenn and co went lan. -,-
Till 7, had maccs for dinner (:
On the way back to PS to buy some thing, 

Saw DARREN! OMG,so happy luh! 
We said hi, better than nothing:D
haha.

Saw JOVAN too!
He's still the same, with a sweet smile . :D

Slacked till 8,bussed home with Phebe.
Home Sweet Home. (:


If I ever have the chance to love again, I will make the right choice and cherish it.
Never to let go again.

Everytime I tried, I get tongue tied.








 

Alrights, now is like late morning.
I just woke up and yeahh.
Was fucking annoyed today,my mood.
Cause ytd I receiced a msn message which says something thaat is letting me go.
LOL . I think only Eileen will understand what Im saying.

thats all,Im going out soon
when i reached home Ill post picturess about tday!
BurByes!

MY CAREBEAR!!                                                           My Picturess!!
LOVE IT MANY,

Just reached home at 11.30 pm cause went out for Macs! haha(:
I think I'll grow fat this way omg how.
Ohya, suddenIy I remembered those past memories that i miss alot!
Show you some picturees kay! :D


ME AND MY DEAREST LOVER.



Best Friends Since 3 years ago,now still counting .
Hope that we could stay forever tgt. :D


Last year's chalet i guess, haha . miss all those memories.

Love your many,

Thanks EileenAng. for always cheering me up when i am down.
I had been isolating myself in class you know-,-

Thinking of all things that had happened in the past .
I find that Im foolish,stupid and stubborn to let people take advantage of me.

What should I really do now. Im annoyed by alot of things!
I guess only Eileen and Phebe understand what i am trying to say.
hahah-,-

If I ever had a chance to choose again ,
I will not make this decision.